Posts tagged ‘love’

June 16, 2010

A New Level of Trust

So, as far as I’m concerned, my relationship with Alex has reached whole new level of trust. I let Alex put his dick somewhere this morning that I never intended to let a guy go again. Every other guy has had a smaller dick than him and hurt me when I tried anal with them. But none of them would be slow or gentle and they wouldn’t stop when I said it started to hurt, so I swore to myself I would never do it again. But, I’m on my period, so I can’t do anything and I woke up in the middle of the night playing with his dick. I guess I was dreaming about making love to him or something.  We sat there and played around for a couple hours because of it, and I’ve let him put his finger in my ass. It’s small so it feels really good, but this time he was rubbing his dick on my asshole and it felt really good and it was wet so it would slide across well. He sat there and played with it for a long time till the tip just kid of slid in. We actually had it in for quite a while. It didn’t get that deep, but it actually felt wonderful and he was so gentle and made me feel so good. He got more than the head in, that’s for sure. It just proves he  really is my soulmate. I completely trust him with my body, heart, and soul and I don’t even have to try. Everything he does feels good to me and I know he would never intentionally hurt me. He always says the greatest things in bed too. Like telling me how he loves having a freaky little girl. And I absolutely love being able to trust him enough to do all that freaky stuff with him. It seems like everything he suggests to try, I totally enjoy it. I don’t think I could enjoy my sex life this much with anyone else. He knows exactly what to say and do, and where to touch to make me ecstatically happy and incredibly turned on. I am soo damn lucky to have gotten my hands on him.  He is my perfect man. Not just the fact that our bodies seem like they were created for each other, (I let him do things that other girls wouldn’t even try and hardly any girl could handle the size of his cock but it’s perfect to me.) but he makes me happier emotionally than I ever thought possible. Don’t get me wrong, we have our fights but I would not give it up for the world. That dick, those incredible abs, that heart of gold, and that beautiful mind are all mine.

June 2, 2010

The Truest Description of Love

I found this a while back and it is the perfect summary of my feelings with Alex. I want to get  a print of it to hang on the wall.

June 2, 2010

All Dressed Up With Nothing to Do

I just don’t get how the best nights can take these amazingly abrupt turns into total bullshit. My boyfriend is being an asshole and I don’t know what to do about it. We were supposed to go to a concert tonight, but  it was cancelled, so we went out to eat. Afterwards, we went to Priscillas and I got some cuffs and outfit. We came home, I put on my outfit and we watched a movie. Throughout the movie, he’s squeezing my ass and rubbing on me cause I’m wearing my new outfit. Halfway through, he stops the movie and asks if I want to go lay down. Thinking I’m gonna get laid, I go with him and sit there for 30 minutes while he smokes a cigarette and chills waiting for him to do something. Finally I roll over and say forget it, since apparently I’m not going to get anything. After that it turns into a fight. All of it leads back to the fact that he’s said all these different romantic things he’s done for other girlfriends and I haven’t seen anything. Supposedly, I’m better to him than any of them, but I don’t get to be romanced. And I don’t even have to be romanced, just being dominated would be great. But he said the reason because he was relaxing and was going to have a little romance before we did anything, but I’m sitting there in lingerie and I’m waiting 20 minutes, so I gave up.Don’t get me wrong, I would absolutely love something romantic. I’ve pretty much never experienced it. Alex did buy me a sweet card one day, but he also brought a 19 yr old chick home from the store with him that day (long story). So it kind of ruined the gesture for me. I wish he would make some genuinely romantic gestures. I’ve never had any really and I want to spend my life with him. I want to get the things he says his other girlfriends got. It really fucks with me and hurts.

June 1, 2010

Thoughts on Love

Today at 12:11am
“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’”

Not necessarily just girls but for anyone that found someone special.

If you do, remember this quote regardless and be true.

Love is love.

❤ ❤

-Joshua Joshy Gauger 5/31/2010
A quote by my soon-to-be little brother. Alex does all these things and more. He’s so amazing. I am one of the luckiest women alive.